to be honest i hadn't thought about my bad experiences with men in a long time. i'd removed the really bad from my brain and left myself with the just the bad. i remember hardly anything from my trip to Slovakia in January 2019, except for that one evening when a colleague, manipulated me into… Continue reading to be a woman
Category: Ramblings
rubik’s cube
so difficult to solve, so angular. i pick it up and put it back down. i give myself a break, telling myself that i won't try again for another few days. but im right back where i left off just a few hours later. last time i tried to solve a puzzle, all the jigsaw… Continue reading rubik’s cube
Protected: dialogue
here to stay
more misleading words could not have been selected. smile once more at me laugh in the way which you'd forgotten i've been waiting for the flower to bloom instead the bubbles swelled and burst. another lace dress wasted. feel my breath upon your cheek. instead of moving further away, i'm going to wait, wait... i'm… Continue reading here to stay
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can’t help falling
take my hand, dance with me tonight. another post, another thought, dedicated to you. nearly all of what has recently been written, has been for you. let's sway together, slowly. i don't want to get dizzy, so i'll centre my focus on the smile in the corner of your mouth. my actions mirror yours in… Continue reading can’t help falling
letters
i have letters i'd written 2 years ago, ready to be sent out. but i don't have the courage to put a stamp on them. there are three in total. 1 before you came to London, written in nervous anticipation 1 after you cut off communication, written in angry disappointment 1 written a few months… Continue reading letters
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tornado
i've been caught in a whirlwind, i'm spinning so fast, i'm so far off the ground. i've been swept away. money, responsibility, excitement, happiness, simplicity swirls around me picked up by the ferocious winds. i've separated body and mind, left my limbs limp, so that nature may take control. my mind jumps quickly from one… Continue reading tornado
healing
i look over at the sun. it's heating up my room, leaving me to broil in drowsy comfort. in the background, my father's voice gradually swells, repetitively battling with his duty to his students and slow understanding of technology. in the corner of my eye i see the medicine sitting on my desk. it peeks… Continue reading healing